Fearing Life?

Dear life,Do I hate you? or I just hate that I am not liking you enough? Well what's the difference? My heart is beating. I am alive. But am I really?My thoughts have destroyed me more than blades ever could. Sometimes it’s heavy… like you’re carrying an elephant. Sometimes it’s dark… you wonder if you’ll… Continue reading Fearing Life?


The average person has tens of thousands of thoughts every day. Most of these are fairly mundane and ordinary, but given the sheer amount of chatter running through our brains, it’s no surprise that we sometimes get strange, even disconcerting, thoughts that appear to come from nowhere. You’re walking across a bridge and suddenly think… Continue reading Delirium

Relentless mind

"Who are you, Lucy Ayene?", I asked myself. Trapped within the confines of my own mind, I am too aware of every thought passing through it, as if I was outside, looking in. At night I often lie awake ruminating endlessly about what’s wrong with me, about death, and about the meaning of existence itself.… Continue reading Relentless mind